Music Video: More Than Love - Amerie & Fabolous

It feels so weird to be infactuated and in love again. I wasnt so sure that would be possible again, Im not sure if this is even real. Even if its fantasy, Its not over till I say it is, or find out otherwise.

Transitions

Home Sweet Home.

Whoa! Those words never been more real to me than now. Syracuse put me through so many challenges that I still have yet to overcome and understand. I have come to see myself as stronger than I ever anticipated for being happy with myself, for giving my best academically, for nursing my own broken heart, and accomplishing the short term goals I set for myself. Every break, I discover more about myself and complete another leg of the race. After only 2 semesters there, I feel like I been there an eternity and have grown so much. Each day I continue growing, each heartache makes me stronger, and each fake friend gets cut. Family is the only thing I need around me & there are few people who I can call that. Friends? yes they are important but they have to be chosen wisely, and we all make mistakes. Keeping my mind and eyes open. I'm just happy to be home surrounded by the people who make my world spin, I can let my guard down for a little bit. More soon! xoxo Happy Holidays!

Topics to come:

Friends: What does that really mean?

The Long Awaited: Love Triangle

Dreams

Your dreams are windows into the subconscious. Messages your mind can not make you aware of in consciousness. Dreams are a way to help you figure things out. Lately there have been mice in my dreams, which I am terrified of. After researching, I found that my dreams have been telling me something I been ignoring the past months. Lets see what I dream of over the next few weeks.

Mice Dream Symbols:

Mice are often symbolic of little things that irritate you in life, or small fears that drain you of energy.

To see mice or rats in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, guilt and envy. You are feeling unworthy Something that you are keeping to yourself is eating you up inside. Alternatively, it denotes repulsion, decay, dirtiness, and even death. The dream may also be a pun on someone who is a rat. Are you feeling betrayed?If you reacted with fear towards the mouse in your dream, it is a sign that you let something minor to ruin your peace of mind. Several mice represent small worries and problems which may cause serious damage.

Wishlist*

1. Cake Batter Confetti Cake from Coldstone Creamery (Happy Birthday to me!)

2. Charms for my Juicy Couture Bracelet

3. Pearl Betsey Johnson Charm Bracelet

4. Long Black Gloves

5. AMERICAN APPAREL GIFT CARD!

Resentment

Mariah is Back!

Rolling with the Punches

She's holds it in within her skin

the sin of a man who didn't give a damn

but always lended a hand

to her

Sending mixed signals to a naive individual

slowly converting her into a doll.

A doll that pretended to be perfection

yet let herself be played with

but that by the brown hair on her head

swore she was playing the game right back

but wasn't

she had no idea of it

she was fooling herself.

And as she speaks her tales of misery,

she speaks them hesitantly

for the reader might identify with her story

with that man

her love...

-- From "Copyrights & Trademarks"

Rolling with the Punches

Hall of Languages Room 202

Wed. 12/9/09 7pm

Misery Buisness

You lean on that Great Wall enjoying what I suffer from

Hiding behind those blue suede shoes you laugh

I cry and thats how the world turns ladies and gentlemen

Im here watching his wildest dreams come true

and none of them involve you, but that does not absolve you

from the sins you commit under God and the principle of loyalty and respect

You are less than my worst and for that I hate thee

and hate, ugh such an ugly emotion that consumes me.

and you? Oblivious. Perhaps Jealous, but definitely enjoying the best of both worlds

Mine and yours. His and Ours.

Make Wise Choices - Stupak Amendment

Today I opened my email and was informed that there will be a “rally on the quad on Wed., Dec. 2nd between 10:30 Am to 12:30 PM, to show our dissatisfaction for the Stupak Amendment, that if passed will take away abortion rights for women.” Framing is EVERYTHING! When I first read this, I immediately thought that abortion had become illegal in the United States of America, after research and questions I learned other wise. According to Wikipedia, “The amendment prohibits use of Federal funds "to pay for any abortion or to cover any part of the costs of any health plan that includes coverage of abortion" except in cases of rape, incest or danger to the life of the mother,[1] … It also specifically allows individuals to purchase supplementary insurance that covers other abortions.”

I am pro – choice and unfortunately, I will not be able to attend the rally for too long tomorrow. I want to see what others have to say on the issue. I myself, am on the fence with the amendment. It does not take away a woman’s choice, but it does make it more difficult to get one. A problem with teen pregnancy and other unwanted pregnancies often escalate because of the unavailability of abortions. After studying health insurance, I know that many Americans are currently under or uninsured, and adding another charge to the equation might complicate things. I do agree with the exceptions stated in the amendment and the fact that the amendment might cause for more people to be more sexually cautious. I continued to be troubled by the thought and asked my friend Alexandra Volcy, my politically aware friend, what she thought. She said:

“Safe sex is a very controversial issue within America. It's one that is often looked past very, and too quickly. For that reason women and men respectively should take extra care and precaution to avoid unwanted pregnancies. The Stupak-Pitts Amendment solely focuses on abortions by choice, not those dealing with rape, incest, or endangerment to the mother. For that reason I am in full support of the Amendment. This Amendment leaves much room for interpretation. First off, it does not ignore those that STILL want coverage for abortions, it simply states that you must buy supplemental coverage. Just like getting amazing dental health care, that would cover such luxuries as braces, abortion should be treated the same. That was a choice/mistake made by the woman/man involved, and they should see the consequences to the actions. Secondly, according to national surveys only 13% of all abortions are normally billed to private insurance companies. With that said this Amendment may not affect many women, and in fact may help them re-think their actions and responsibilities. Thirdly, those who choose to buy supplemental coverage will omit the stress of having to pay a large sum for an abortion when needed, and will let federal money to take care of it for them. Lastly, this Amendment gives those that are pro-choice and pro-life a law that supports either/or stances, which in a bi-partisan government is truly important.”

No matter what your stance, you are now more aware of what is happening. I know that I had no idea what was going on until I received the email. If you would like to voice your opinion or talk to more people on the issue you can attend the rally tomorrow:

Syracuse University Quad

Wed. December 2, 2009

10:30am – 12:30 pm